haha thank god! ugh that sucks we haevtn done anything much.
yeah totally lol. thats good! at least u didnt just cry and fail u no?
come to think about it dont think ive ever referred to kent as "my school", isnt that weird? the only time i usually say "my school" is when i bring home friends from kent and want to show them my old school and all my girls.
idk to be honest i hate everyone.blatant, i no. i.hate.everyone. i just want to go far, far away and never see anyone i know except like...anna ever again. isaiah and i arent close so i dont think i wood miss him if i went away and everyone else isnt even making an effort to talk to me, iain's blatantly ignoring me, hughs always with him, isaiah's being a good friend, jarens talking to me, baileys off doing wtf ever idc and i havent talk to anyone for a long time but my friend anna from horizon...god shes my fav. everytime i feel like im a worhtless, ugly, useless piece of shit, when i see her shes the one person who is always excited to see me, always hugging me, saying nice things, making me feel like yeah maybe im not just a waste of freakin oxygen. i saw her all 3 days this weekend and it was like...the best three days of my life i really needed her then and there she was...randomly showing up at my house. god i love her so much. destinies still my friend, i just dont see her much, moving away woodnt make a dif. val neither. maria, breanna...doesnt matter i guess. i just dont have any friends at kent anymore it feels but the saddest part is...i dont even care. i dont want to make new friends either. theyll screw me over. ignore me evetually. move away. theres really no point. im completely content just drawing and reading and writing and singing im just so sick of being around humans every day i hate them i HATE everyone.....theres no point in being around people when u dont exist. its just a waste. i just want to hang out w/ my horizon girls...be in the same classes and each lunch together and mock our dean and make fun of her and creep the counselor and everyone else in the school out and go to choir and orchestra and art and know everyone that they talk about, know who their new friend are, no the teachers names and feel like i belong somewhere for a while. i want to be the first to no dee's with kaden the coolest blond kid ever and know what books my vampy friend is reading, see anna every day and maria and bre talk about the band and be mean to katie cuz i hate her guts and complain about mrs. brown my god right now i just feel like im lost inbetween so many worlds, none of which i quite fit into. on so many levls...ugh.
do u ever feel like ur just waiting for somehting but u dont no what? i feel like my life's a waiting room in a hospital. i just wait for tomorrow wait to stop being female wait to stop being me wait to stop being someone else wait to stop thinking and doing hw and eating and sleeping and being awake and talking and school and living where i do and having curly hair and seeing my reflection that just doesnt seem quite right and life. i just always feel like im waiting for things to get over with already but i dont know what "things" are. im always waiting. its weird.
sorry for the rant. that was sooo long sorry....
mr.cox is alright i guess. not so bad. we havent actually done much yet. i like mr.collamore(?)and bosick tho
i just read Luna and it was the most beautiful book...